loving fool

Listen to the words I say
are they mine or someone from the past
a wounded little girl who learnt love doesn't last
in the shadow of hurt scars of doubt are cast

anyone that I love
i have to push away
because deep in my heart
I know they'll never stay

I can't see through all my fears
my vision blurred by tears
or is it all just a ruse
am I searching for an excuse
for all the mistakes I've made
and the doubts I've laid

Will I never learn
the secret of true love
or will my heart always yearn
for that which is so far above

am I a dreamer
am I a fool

I've walked the valley of despair
I've spent a lot of time there
I've glimpsed a rainbow
on the horizon
but then it goes
like the setting sun
and I never make it there

(c)2017 Catherine Elder