I feel like crying
You made me feel this way
All the childhood hurts
swamped me til I was drowning
You came uninvited
with someone
so to manipulate the situation
I could not be rude
so I served you coffee
You served me insult
You complained of the dogs
who just wanted attention
and love
like I did when I was naive
enough to think that there was
a chance family would give me
attention and love
You spurned them
as me
You did not care
that I did not want you there
purposely didn't give you my address
didn't invite you
couldn't wait for you to leave
You didn't know the dogs names
even the ten year old
You haven't heard me for over ten years
You haven't heard me ever
You look around as if to tally
the value to you
not happy for me
looking for what is in it for you
but I know you
better than you know me
I do not want you here
but I feel violated
invaded
my sanctuary breached
I will lock my door
let the dogs roam
you will not cross the threshold
to deliver more hurt
You caught me by surprise
but I won't be fooled twice
and I won't be hurt again
You are not welcome here
@2022 - March 19 By Catherine Elder
